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 this blog needs a disclaimer, i haven't written in english in---tbh i don't think i've ever written in english except for school work so it may be shitty, i may make mistakes and my writing style may be that of a 13 yr old.

 there have been some things troubling me (this blog will either end up being too personal or too shallow and i kinda prefer a mix of both i think) for example i don't think i'm ready to get my drivers' license simply because i haven't studied for the theoretical test, also i'm not very good at driving. you ppl reading this will ofc judge me saying that it's a piece of cake and it is, but when u really DON'T wanna do something, what's your motivation eh? (」ﾟﾛﾟ)｣ my dad tricked me into this by paying the course in advance so what would you expect hehehe.......the minimum effort that i have to put into this.............i will do it after all because i've found a reason, hear me out: if i can drive, i can crash my car into a bridge i don't care i love it ♥ jk, the reason is secret and cheesy

 ok i got really distracted for at least 30 mins lmaoOOoOoO but i'm back and this paragraph is about my daily make up. i don't know how this ended up being my daily make up but the thing started two or three years ago when, whenever i felt tired and drained and shit, i would line my waterline with a red eye pencil and well, it seems that my tiredness expanded on my lower lid as well. can't wait to get my red lenses to REALLY express and grasp the true intensity that is my life. red not because of passion or anger, but because...u know how ur eyes get red if u work too much on your pc? that's my case, only i don't work i just laze around. so, for me, red because my eyes are irritable and i am lazy and too connected all the time. see how easy someone can get misunderstood? i was told that i give a mysterious, interesting and fascinating vibe and yes it is fascinating how just because you only SAW me once you can utter that complete buuuuullshit. i'm nothing, really nothing and these posts will show exactly that.

 ye, you can't really tell it's red